أنا الحمد لله

They said inspiration is like God blowing through you for an instant. And it's not that I believe in "God" I don't think. I think it's more like I believe in order in the chaos. Interconnectedness on such a large scale that we can't comprehend. But it seems like you're everything because everything is made up of you. And she told me to observe life like a film, but HOW? Well I've been asking for what I need. And it's been appeared. And I've relaxed when it hasn't presented itself as I imagined, because I imagined. And everything's manifestation so how are you looking at it? Are you noticed the flower growing through the crack or the littered streets? So can you give up looking for something, because if you can't loose that fine target, you may miss the point. It could be looking at you while you're looking for something else. So relax and let the Universe unfold. Thank God.

أنا الحمد لله

We are all One.

Eternal Life

Sometimes I'm swimming in my own head and lose sight of the clarity of the sun. That's when I know it's time to grow. Those moments where I'm sinking and my mind is bad is when I look at the internal makeup. I was telling her about letting go to find it. And skinning yourself to breed life. And what does that mean? I don't know. Dismiss the dead and embrace the eternal life? That balance. Of dark and light and death and life? 

To be continued...

Going Up

The shadow and the light. Part of be that manifests that radiating light also manifests a darkness that I never know whether to sit with or stare at from a passengers seat and try to see the light rays through the rain out the window. Change course. To change perspective or to accept. Or both. That low in the belly feels so uncomfortable that I'd rather block it out. But I find the inner most light comes out of those moments of shadow and that roller coaster bottom out. She was telling me I'm a receiver, to watch my life and find the truths like it was on a movie reel. And I understood what she meant but I had already confused myself for a manifestor. Or maybe I had just misunderstood the manifestations. And now what to do, besides let those manifestations happen before my eyes and leave the forces and shaping to the Universe.